[When he draws back, he doesn't let go. His brows furrow over eyes that turn from her, set down, and his mouth curves.]
It's the best thing I can do. What I did on the battlefield, what I—I'm damned, Hermione. I am unsaveable. [A little laugh, and he tips his head forward, gives a fleeting press of the lips.] But I can die, at the cost of a little pain, and I can save someone else that way.
[When he finally looks at her, he is desperate and hopeful, despairing and vulnerable. He reaches for her face.]
It's good, isn't it? I didn't want to hurt you, but this way—I won't leave, not even when I die, and it's a good thing. To protect other people. To make a sacrifice that would be so much greater from someone else. Isn't that good?
[ She knows that if she argues that he isn't damned he'll fight back and argue against her, maybe even laugh, so she bites her tongue on that point - but her hands lift, stroking over his cheeks, holding him close, and she closes her eyes all the tighter. ]
It's not just a little pain, though, is it? It must hurt, horribly, every single time. Not just physically but mentally and emotionally as well. It hurts here.
[ She puts a hand over her heart, letting his hands touch her face, leaning in to him, gazing at him, this man who is her best friend. ]
I'm glad you want to protect people, Dorian, I'm glad that you're doing something good. But it isn't a little pain and I'm never going to be used to it, to seeing you die. I don't think I'll ever be okay with it.
[He smiles a little, and it is such a fragile expression, such a delicate lifting of his lips, like he's scared that it won't go away. It is something good. Hermione says it is good. So, there's a little good left in him, right?]
[ Hermione closes her eyes and leans close, pressing her lips against his forehead, against his nose and his cheek and then finally his lips, slow things, before she nods. ]
[ She shakes her head, fond, before she goes to her bag and pulls out two chains, connected to each other, before she splits them. ]
I used a little bit of runic magic and some of my own to adjust a spell from my world. This should act as a sort of compass for us, just each other, so if we're in trouble we can find each other.
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It's the best thing I can do. What I did on the battlefield, what I—I'm damned, Hermione. I am unsaveable. [A little laugh, and he tips his head forward, gives a fleeting press of the lips.] But I can die, at the cost of a little pain, and I can save someone else that way.
[When he finally looks at her, he is desperate and hopeful, despairing and vulnerable. He reaches for her face.]
It's good, isn't it? I didn't want to hurt you, but this way—I won't leave, not even when I die, and it's a good thing. To protect other people. To make a sacrifice that would be so much greater from someone else. Isn't that good?
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It's not just a little pain, though, is it? It must hurt, horribly, every single time. Not just physically but mentally and emotionally as well. It hurts here.
[ She puts a hand over her heart, letting his hands touch her face, leaning in to him, gazing at him, this man who is her best friend. ]
I'm glad you want to protect people, Dorian, I'm glad that you're doing something good. But it isn't a little pain and I'm never going to be used to it, to seeing you die. I don't think I'll ever be okay with it.
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But if it is me or you . . . There is no choice.
You have to live.
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I know. But...
[ That shouldn't mean you have to die. ]
Can I give you something?
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Of course.
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[ She shakes her head, fond, before she goes to her bag and pulls out two chains, connected to each other, before she splits them. ]
I used a little bit of runic magic and some of my own to adjust a spell from my world. This should act as a sort of compass for us, just each other, so if we're in trouble we can find each other.
[ She glances up, almost shy. ]
So if there's another battle and you need me...
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Yes. And you'll come find me, if you're the one in need?
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Of course. If I need you I'll come.