I don't know what the outcome would have been. She might have trusted me, she might not, but surely my being punished was better than hundreds of people dying?

[ Frowning, she pushes her food away, her appetite completely gone - not that there was much there to begin with. ]

I know what it's like too, Ignis. I've seen what war does to people, both at home and in the Drabwurld. I lost my best friend, I made my parents forget about me, I lost so many friends and seeing what happens to the people that are left behind... It's awful. It's the worst thing, the worst feeling, that I've ever seen or felt. I understand, truly, I do.

[ But... She breathes out, closing her eyes. ]

I've done so many things, and hurt so many people. There's blood on my hands too, and I can't just ignore that or pretend that it's okay.