[ A part of her thinks she shouldn't be surprised by the question, considering how their friendship started, but she is. Hermione pauses, considering, feeling something heavy in her chest before she purses her lips, lifting her head to let her eyes roam over him. He was there; he saw the horror that had been done because of her and her anger and he still said such kind words to her. Sometimes it might be easier for her to forget but that wasn't possible.
Her hands curl around one another, finger with finger, tight, as if she's trying to hold herself together. ]
I haven't transformed since... Then.
[ Since the murder. The death and the blood and the memories she can still sometimes see when she closes her eyes. She rises up as a Marchioness as her thoughts drag her down into something a little darker, the understanding of how cruel this world can be dragging at her feet and making her feel ill, the worst kind of sickening sadness. She hasn't turned into a lioness since then because she's had no real need and because she was afraid, afraid of the instincts that had driven her and the burning reminder of the taste of flesh in her mouth.
Her smile is shaky, her hands clenching as she tries to hold herself together. ]
I'm not sure what would happen if I did, that's all.
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Her hands curl around one another, finger with finger, tight, as if she's trying to hold herself together. ]
I haven't transformed since... Then.
[ Since the murder. The death and the blood and the memories she can still sometimes see when she closes her eyes. She rises up as a Marchioness as her thoughts drag her down into something a little darker, the understanding of how cruel this world can be dragging at her feet and making her feel ill, the worst kind of sickening sadness. She hasn't turned into a lioness since then because she's had no real need and because she was afraid, afraid of the instincts that had driven her and the burning reminder of the taste of flesh in her mouth.
Her smile is shaky, her hands clenching as she tries to hold herself together. ]
I'm not sure what would happen if I did, that's all.